Thoughts On Being a Mom
Recently, my daughter, Annika (age 24 and our only child), posted something on Facebook that made me very meditative about being a Mom, and brought tears to my eyes. Here is what she said:
“I love this season of life I’m in. I’m so thankful for life and joy and the freedom to go wherever, do whatever Jesus might be calling me to. I’m thankful for the creative drive and the passions God puts in our hearts.”
Now at first blush, she didn’t say anything about me, so why would I think about my Mom-hood? It just gave me such a feeling of satisfaction and happiness that she is in a good place in her life right now. My husband and I cannot take all the credit, I know. There have been many and varied influences in her life that have shaped her into the woman she is today. Primarily, God has done a tremendous work in her to bring her to where she feels so joyful and ready to do anything He might be calling her to do. We brought her up loving Jesus and knowing God’s Word and she is very sensitive to the work of the Holy Spirit and where God is calling her.
It seems like only days ago that I was sitting with her in this very living room that I am sitting in now, quizzing her on a final test she was about to take before graduating. Something in the wording of the review page just started me laughing and I couldn’t stop. Then, all of a sudden, the laughing turned to crying and really sobbing. My daughter was looking at me like I was crazy…and indeed I felt crazy! Finally, when I was able to stop crying I told her that it just hit me how close she was to leaving our home and going out on her own. It was a rush of feelings that just overwhelmed me. She started calling me “manic mama” that day!
It took several years after she went off to college before I was able to smile when waving goodbye after a visit. It’s still hard to see her go. I miss her beautiful piano playing, her laugh, her staying up late at night, her walking around the house while brushing her teeth or talking on the phone, and her standing on her head in the lounge chair, with her feet waving up in the air, memorizing Scripture!
Secretly, it also made me think back to when I was in the place she is now with such hopeful expectations for the future, and how in some ways, I wish I was back at that place too.
I have absolutely loved being Annika’s Mom. It hasn’t always been easy, but it has been rewarding! I feel like we are such good friends now. And wonder of wonders, she still wants to share things with me that make me feel like I am still very important in her life. I thank God for Annika and who she is now.
If this post resonates with you, please share your thoughts on being a Mom in the comments below. I would love to hear your stories.
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